I've started to think about slowing getting rid of Michael's things. I've decided to start small like with his hair gel and socks, although I'm not really ready yet. I'm fortunate that we shared many of our clothes, so I've already decided that I'm going to keep most of the clothes we both wore. I'll just donate to a mission some of his pants and shoes that I didn't wear.
Tonight I wonder if I didn't go a little weird. With my braces, my toothbrush was showing its wear, so I looked in the hall cabinet for a new toothbrush. I couldn't find one. All of a sudden, I decided to use his toothbrush that had been sitting in the medicine cabinet for 14 1/2 weeks without being used since his death. I realize it's not the healthiest and hygienic choice I could have made, and probably a tad creepy. However, Ijust felt this urge to be closer to him. His toothbrush is about as close as I can get to him, and right now, that's what I need.
I still haven't gotten rid of his deodorant, his hair gel, his lotion, his cologne, or even his razor. His razor even still has little hairs in it. I'm just not ready to get rid of this stuff yet. Doing so and then opening a half empty medicine cabinet would be another constant reminder in the mornings and evenings. I know he's gone, but having some of this things around gives me a little comfort. Just like using his toothbrush.
I've used Kevin's toothbrush a few times when I needed it. It's not bad.
ReplyDeleteI think you have a good plan to start to get rid of things. Start with the small stuff when you're ready. Maybe just try one thing a day at first.
As for the braces, I think that was a perfect thing to do for yourself and that will always be something to remember him by.